Do you ever just feel like a failure?
For the most part, I don't. But when it comes to eating healthy, I do. I just can't seem to stick with a plan. I eat until it hurts, and then I usually eat some more. It just isn't something I can control very easily. And then I feel like crap and get depressed and it's that much harder to start over again. But I have to, I have to always start again. I get so jealous of the girls that bounced back to their Pre-baby body so quickly. I get mad thinking about those that didn't have to work at it. I get depressed thinking about those that did because I'm not as strong as they are. The worst is that I think I look alright, until I see a picture of myself. Then I want to never eat again. But, that isn't the answer. The answer is to do something good for myself each and every day. What did I do today? I didn't eat any sugar. What am I going to do tomorrow? Ill decide that in the morning. I have decided that I can choose what is hard in my life. Would I rather have it be hard to control my eating habits or hard to live in a body that depresses me? I think I'll choose the first. Tomorrow is a new beginning. I can do this.
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Aw, Whitney. This post makes me sad, but I want you to know that you aren't alone. I completely understand everything that you've written.
ReplyDeleteI think that you are beautiful, and a wonderful mother to Rees!
Hang in there. Keep trying and I will too. :-)
Bree, you are so sweet! Thanks for this kind note, its so nice to see that I'm not alone in feeling this way sometimes! We really need to get together soon.
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