I have started my weight loss counter over. The 50 pounds I have lost so far is great, but I feel like it came off relatively easy after having Rees. So, its the last 17 that are killing me. Losing these last 17 pounds will be MUCH more of an accomplishment than the first 50. Besides, 8 of that was baby, and about 30 was water weight.
What scares me most is that I'm planning on having another baby relatively soon (not an announcement!) and I just don't want to go through this all again. It is so hard. It depresses me a little bit. It makes me question whether or not Rees needs siblings. But, as my mom says, this is my season. My season to give of myself completely, in every way possible, and bring beautiful babies into this world. When this season is over I will miss it so much, and I won't care what I weighed. I love my mom, she is always there to encourage me, in everything.
I am a goal setter, so if nothing else, just seeing that number on this blog will remind me of my daily goal to take care of myself.
Monday, June 3, 2013
A Fitness Workout.
I'm thinking of taking up Prancercising. Just watching this video gives me a pretty good workout.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
The Truth Is...
The truth is that I have about 15 pounds to lose.
The truth is that I love unhealthy food so keeping myself away from it is soooo hard.
The truth is that I also love healthy food, so that is a plus.
The truth is that I haven't felt comfortable in my own skin in a LONG time.
The truth is that I tend to say to myself "diet starts tomorrow"
The truth is that I can't imagine myself actually losing weight, and I think thats the problem.
The truth is that I get really jealous of those who have never had to struggle with their weight.
The truth is that I do love my curves and I wouldn't want to lose them. I just want to slim a bit.
The truth is that I run 12-15 miles each week, you would think that I would be a lot thinner.
The truth is that I know my husband loves me for exactly who I am, so why do I even worry?
The truth is that I always think "well, when I finally lose the weight then I'll do _____ or go ____"
The truth is that I can't stand when people label others as skinny or fat, why not as smart, or kind, or beautiful?
The truth is that I HATE thinking this way. I want to just worry about being healthy and not about how much weight I need to lose all the time.
The truth is that I need to change my mindset. Here is to thinking healthy and not being fixated on the number on the scale.
The truth is that I love unhealthy food so keeping myself away from it is soooo hard.
The truth is that I also love healthy food, so that is a plus.
The truth is that I haven't felt comfortable in my own skin in a LONG time.
The truth is that I tend to say to myself "diet starts tomorrow"
The truth is that I can't imagine myself actually losing weight, and I think thats the problem.
The truth is that I get really jealous of those who have never had to struggle with their weight.
The truth is that I do love my curves and I wouldn't want to lose them. I just want to slim a bit.
The truth is that I run 12-15 miles each week, you would think that I would be a lot thinner.
The truth is that I know my husband loves me for exactly who I am, so why do I even worry?
The truth is that I always think "well, when I finally lose the weight then I'll do _____ or go ____"
The truth is that I can't stand when people label others as skinny or fat, why not as smart, or kind, or beautiful?
The truth is that I HATE thinking this way. I want to just worry about being healthy and not about how much weight I need to lose all the time.
The truth is that I need to change my mindset. Here is to thinking healthy and not being fixated on the number on the scale.
Monday, April 8, 2013
Fail.
Do you ever just feel like a failure?
For the most part, I don't. But when it comes to eating healthy, I do. I just can't seem to stick with a plan. I eat until it hurts, and then I usually eat some more. It just isn't something I can control very easily. And then I feel like crap and get depressed and it's that much harder to start over again. But I have to, I have to always start again. I get so jealous of the girls that bounced back to their Pre-baby body so quickly. I get mad thinking about those that didn't have to work at it. I get depressed thinking about those that did because I'm not as strong as they are. The worst is that I think I look alright, until I see a picture of myself. Then I want to never eat again. But, that isn't the answer. The answer is to do something good for myself each and every day. What did I do today? I didn't eat any sugar. What am I going to do tomorrow? Ill decide that in the morning. I have decided that I can choose what is hard in my life. Would I rather have it be hard to control my eating habits or hard to live in a body that depresses me? I think I'll choose the first. Tomorrow is a new beginning. I can do this.
For the most part, I don't. But when it comes to eating healthy, I do. I just can't seem to stick with a plan. I eat until it hurts, and then I usually eat some more. It just isn't something I can control very easily. And then I feel like crap and get depressed and it's that much harder to start over again. But I have to, I have to always start again. I get so jealous of the girls that bounced back to their Pre-baby body so quickly. I get mad thinking about those that didn't have to work at it. I get depressed thinking about those that did because I'm not as strong as they are. The worst is that I think I look alright, until I see a picture of myself. Then I want to never eat again. But, that isn't the answer. The answer is to do something good for myself each and every day. What did I do today? I didn't eat any sugar. What am I going to do tomorrow? Ill decide that in the morning. I have decided that I can choose what is hard in my life. Would I rather have it be hard to control my eating habits or hard to live in a body that depresses me? I think I'll choose the first. Tomorrow is a new beginning. I can do this.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Friday Favorite
This Friday Favorite is brought to you by the men's section at Target. I found this shirt for $9! It is so comfy and is perfect to wear while lounging around the house. I may have bought two more because I was so pleased. I am not the kind of person that can stay in my sweats all day, but I'm also not the kind that likes to dress up everyday. That is why I love t-shirts. They are simple, just like me. I highly reccommend grabbing one for yourself!
Ps- this picture not only makes me look much thinner than I am, but it also makes me look like I have no legs...spooky!
Ps- this picture not only makes me look much thinner than I am, but it also makes me look like I have no legs...spooky!
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Try This! Tuesday
I hereby promise to be a better blogger. I really have a good reason, I promise. My reason for not blogging is three fold.
1. Blogger has not been letting me upload pictures. Why, I do not know.
2. Greg is both researching and writing his senior thesis paper this semester (this is usually done in two semesters) so he takes over the office every night leaving me high and dry with no computer.
3. During the day I am either chasing a little boy around the house, or recovering from chasing a little boy around the house and spending time on the computer doesn't sound as appealing as sitting on the couch. There, I said it. I'm lazy.
Since it is Tuesday and all, I thought I would share a new recipe that you should all try. My sister-in-law made this amazing main-dish salad when we visited a few months ago. I have been craving it ever since. I vaguely remembered her saying that she found the recipe on pinterest, so I started to search. And guess what? I found it! I have made it a few times for our small family and I can never get enough.
Click here for the recipe. Enjoy!
Calories: who knows
Weight Watchers Points: 7 for 1/4 of salad.
1. Blogger has not been letting me upload pictures. Why, I do not know.
2. Greg is both researching and writing his senior thesis paper this semester (this is usually done in two semesters) so he takes over the office every night leaving me high and dry with no computer.
3. During the day I am either chasing a little boy around the house, or recovering from chasing a little boy around the house and spending time on the computer doesn't sound as appealing as sitting on the couch. There, I said it. I'm lazy.
Balsamic Chicken, Spinach, and Tortellini Salad
Click here for the recipe. Enjoy!
Calories: who knows
Weight Watchers Points: 7 for 1/4 of salad.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Friday Favorite
I'm hoping my love for them will encourage me to run a little more this year.
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